Vitrify your ovules and forget!

I´m getting obsessed with the idea that my biological clock has come to its limits. I have to admit it, it is not pleasant because I´m close to 35 years old and I feel almost as if society puts a gun to my head. I have spent many nights thinking about the options and, as many women, I will be waiting for the response to fall from the sky. If I dare to have a Kid, could I have a normal life?, who will travel for me?, what about the money?, and what if I can´t have children?, and if i wait I´ll be too old to support the training?, if i wait a few years, could have a sick child? Phew! Too many questions and pressure!, all that has gone though my mind over and over again as torture. In fact, all this self psycological persecution began with a post on facebook where i was surprised that a former co-high school thought i didn´t want to have children?
Then I ask myself, and of course I want!, The question is: do i want it now? Well, as my problem is time, I ventured into the lated assisted reproduction, really it is crazy to get pregnant through a system that truly reminds me how they fertilize cows, but in an emergency it is a tremendous option. Vitrify your ovules! Yes, you heard correctly. Ovules Vitrification is the lastest when talking about fertilization you undergo a stimulation treatment, your abdomen is punctured and your oocytes are removed during your young years. It is known that though the years, the ovules get older (like us), we can´t make them a facelift!, or use advanced ultra hyper serums to help them to rejuvenate. So as the problem is time, I seriously thought of freezing them at their best stage, now!.
Such reatment  is recommended to any woman of childbearing age, the best is between 28 and 30 years old, I´m already old but anyway, I will survive.
Vitrification is a technique in which your wonderful oocytes undergo a freeze by liquid nitrogen, passing directly in less than a minute to -196 degrees, withouth a trace of ice. Few years ago, the simple freeze generated a large percentage failures in the process of defreezing. It isnt cheap, lets admit it, but to keep your future offspring in optimun conditions, plus the advantage of getting pregnant when you give the very gains is a great advantage. Spain and Chile are the clinical specialists in field Cryo - conservation or what is the same vitrification. It is important to remember that the level of the fertility in Europe is scary. The stress and the lifestyle  have declined dramatically the Births, as women are not willing to be young mothers. I have latin blood and, sometimes I wonder why i was so responsible and didnt mess up when i was younger , anyway, it would have been probably a mistake.
Today a little more mature, I like the idea of a baby, the problem is that they grow, cry, kick and spend money, well, i guess you already know, but weighing the pros and cons, I think there is a high probability that I will become a mother within a few years. I imagine you are already counting my age with your fingers... well yes!! I said a few years... "But if you´re 35..." Relax, because thanks to vitrification, the age of my ovules is eternal. My 35 years old remain in those healthy and strong ovules, however, I have to say that the price of eternal life costs at least 7800 euros, apart from all the expenses related to previous treatments. If I think about that possibility, I will have healthy children and with 97% chance of having a pregnancy without any risks, no matter when I decide to have them. Isnt it worthy?

The last corner of the world

"Everything is hard. No one gives you anything. What happens is that what costs  a lot builds strong bases. In your case, you know, that the foundation is deep. Don´t mind to fly. Flying is freedom and takes you to the happiness."

This sentence was dedicated to me by a great friend, it was captured in a photograph in 2004 in which he appeared, his current wife she is one of my greatest friends, a colleague and me. We were dining at a restaurant ( Ocean pacific´s) in Santiago-Chile. One of the most complex moment of my life, those moment when you take a radical decision and where your head goes through a million of statements from euphoria to panic.

For me that phrase was decisive, there was no turning back, I left my whole life, my professional projections, my friends of many years and i left my country.

At first everything looked like a fairy tale, but the reality is quite different, because nothing and listen to me very well! nothing will ever be the same.

Giant suitcase, destination Madrid Barajas, Spain, nothing more nothing less, The capital of arts and literature, Goya, Velázquez with his beautiful Meninas, El Quijote, The Gran Vía street at my feet, what else could i dream of... I wasn´t alone, all so wonderfull!. Until the streets become so normal in your routine that your soul and blood can´t stop of thinking about your country.

It´s complex, yeah! Totally and absolutely because you are from nowhere. With the years you understand that it is impossible to have clones and you can´t live a life two places at once, you can switch and go but believe me it isn´t cheap.

Not only is this, when you go to Chile for a  visit, people have the strange feeling that you are "rare" and How i will not be strange if i have a mixed accent (which happens like it or not), I move in a concrete jungle where there are opportunities wich you have to struggle to  grab  and when you return to your beloved this corner  all seems to move a slow motion!, i´m rare, you said?, yes a little! OMG!

Besides all this, people think you are almost rich because, according to them, "salaries in Europe are better", MISTAKE! Compared to the chilean currency you earn more, but the standard of living and debt is the same or even worse, especially in Spain! (Perhaps, in the Netherlands is different, man!!! Honestly I don´t know) So things aren´t so easy to be like everyone thinks.

However, every time I return to the peace of my beautiful Chile and enjoy the happiness and friendliness of our people, I realize the treasure we have, that warmth, the solidarity that prevails in the hearts, which has been shown to the rest of the world rescuing those 33 men from the San José mine.

A country that grows and strengthens, our own soil, where you were born, that make us who we are, that little corner of the world, that long and narrow strip of land that beats within all those who live abroad.